奶油馒头

神人演奏忐忑钢琴版

2011-12-26T00:33:00.002-06:00

蔡旻佑 sings Nobody Does It Better

2011-11-17T22:54:00.004-06:00

He is very talented

Martha - Tom Waits (cover)

2011-11-11T14:29:00.000-06:00

My poor attempt on this cover.

Chocolate Jesus - Tom Waits

2011-11-04T17:52:00.000-05:00

Don't go to church on Sunday
Don't get on my knees to pray
Don't memorize the books of the Bible
I got my own special way
Bit I know Jesus loves me
Maybe just a little bit more

I fall on my knees every Sunday
At Zerelda Lee's candy store

Well it's got to be a chocolate Jesus
Make me feel good inside
Got to be a chocolate Jesus
Keep me satisfied

Well I don't want no Abba Zabba
Don't want no Almond Joy
There ain't nothing better
Suitable for this boy
Well it's the only thing
That can pick me up
Better than a cup of gold
See only a chocolate Jesus
Can satisfy my soul

[Solo]
When the weather gets rough
And it's whiskey in the shade
It's best to wrap your savior
Up in cellophane
He flows like the big muddy
But that's ok
Pour him over ice cream
For a nice parfait

Well it's got to be a chocolate Jesus
Good enough for me
Got to be a chocolate Jesus
Good enough for me

Well it's got to be a chocolate Jesus
Make me feel so good inside
Got to be a chocolate Jesus
Keep me satisfied

J Rabbit, leeSA and Yana (www.friendz.net)

2011-10-19T22:36:00.003-05:00

A group of girls who really know music and have a lot of fun.

Clip of "J Rabbit" covering "Winter Wonderland"

Clip of "leeSA" covering "Tik Tok"

Clip of "Yana" covering some Korean song I don't know

Devil Got My Woman

2011-10-04T23:24:00.002-05:00

Dim the lights and spin that old record.

by Skip James

I'd rather be the devil, to be that woman man
I'd rather be the devil, to be that woman man
Aw, nothin' but the devil, changed my baby's mind
Was nothin' but the devil, changed my baby's mind
I laid down last night, laid down last night
I laid down last night, tried to take my rest
My mind got to ramblin', like a wild geese
From the west, from the west
The woman I love, woman that I loved
Woman I loved, took her from my best friend
But he got lucky, stoled her back again
But he got lucky, stoled her back again

Don't Think Twice, It's All Right

2011-08-20T23:44:00.000-05:00

Don't Think Twice, It's All Right
Bob Dylan

It ain't no use to sit and wonder why, babe
It don't matter, anyhow
And it ain't no use to sit and wonder why, babe
If you don't know by now
When your rooster crows at the breaks of dawn
Look out your window and I'll be gone
You're the reason I'm traveling on
Don't think twice, it's all right.

It ain't no use in turning on your light, babe
That light I never knowed
And it ain't no use in turning on your light, babe
I'm on the dark side of the road
But I wish there was somethin' you would do or say
To try and make me change my mind and stay
We never did too much talking anyway
So don't think twice, it's all right.

It ain't no use in calling out my name, gal
Like you never done before
It ain't no use in calling out my name, gal
I can't hear you any more
I'm a-thinking and a-wond'rin' walking down the road
I once loved a woman, a child I'm told
I give her my heart but she wanted my soul
Don't think twice, it's all right.

So long honey, babe
Where I'm bound, I can't tell
Goodbye's too good a word, babe
So I'll just say fare thee well
I ain't saying you treated me unkind
You could have done better but I don't mind
You just kinda wasted my precious time
But don't think twice, it's all right.

And this is JuJu's version, which I think it's fabulously done.

别把感情耗尽了

2011-08-01T19:11:00.000-05:00

你既已不再纯洁，就别把感情耗尽了，还是留给下一个爱人吧。

酸了，算了。

问 - 陈淑桦

2011-07-26T22:08:00.000-05:00

听来听去，还是这个版本最好。

问
词曲李宗盛

谁让你心动谁让你心痛
谁会让你偶尔想要拥他在怀中
谁又在乎你的梦
谁说你的心思他会懂谁为你感动
如果女人总是等到夜深
无悔付出青春他就会对你真
是否女人永远不要多问
她最好永远天真为她所爱的人

谁让你心动谁让你心痛
谁会让你偶尔想要拥他在怀中
谁又在乎你的梦
谁说你的心思他会懂谁为你感动
只是女人容易一往情深
总是为情所困终于越陷越深
可是女人爱是她的灵魂
她可以奉献一生为她所爱的人

如果女人总是等到夜深
无悔付出青春他就会对你真
只是女人容易一往情深
总是为情所困终于越陷越深
可是女人爱是她的灵魂
她可以奉献一生为她所爱的人

Christmas Card from a Hooker in Minneapolis

2011-06-18T17:26:00.001-05:00

hey charlie i'm pregnant
and living on the 9th street
right above a dirty bookstore
off euclid avenue
and i stopped takin dope
and i quit drinkin whiskey
and my old man plays the trombone
and works out at the track

and he says that he loves me
even though its not his baby
and he says that he'll raise him up
like he would his own son
and he gave me a ring
that was worn by his mother
and he takes me out dancin
every saturday night.

and hey charlie i think about you
everytime i pass a fillin station
om account of all the grease
you used to wear in your hair
and i still have that record
of little anthony & the imperials
but someone stole my record player
now how do you like that?

hey charlie i almost went crazy
after mario got busted
so i went back to omaha to
live with my folks
but everyone i used to know
was either dead or in prison
so i came back to minneapolis
this time i think i'm gonna stay.

hey charlie i think i'm happy
for the first time since my accident
and i wish i had all the money
that we used to spend on dope
i'd buy me a used car lot
and i wouldn't sell any of em
i'd just drive a different car
every day, dependin on how
i feel

hey charlie for chrissakes
do you want to know the
truth of it?
i don't have a husband
he don't play the trombone
and i need to borrow money
to pay this lawyer
and charlie, hey
i'll be eligible for parole
come valentines day

不是石建筑而是木建筑的中国宫殿

2011-06-11T01:12:00.004-05:00

一直以来，我有都疑问为何东方建筑多用木料，而西方建筑用石料。也曾经上网查过，并因此问过许多人，但并无解答。今天读了李泽厚大师的《美的历程》方茅厕顿开。感悟颇多，但妄不敢断章取义，自加评论，所以在此将原文抄上。只是惋惜今日见不到一把火烧掉的阿房宫。

与世界许多古文明不同，不是石建筑而是木建筑成为中国一大特色，为什么？似乎至今并无解答。

。。。

首先，各民族主要建筑多半是供养神的庙堂，如希腊神殿，伊斯兰建筑，哥特式教堂等等。中国主要大都是宫殿建筑，祭供世上活着的君主们所居住的场所，大概从新石器时代的所谓“大房子”开始，中国的祭拜神灵即在现实生活紧相联系的时间居住的中心，而不是脱离世俗生活的特别场所。自入学替代宗教之后，在观念，情感和仪式中，更进一步发展贯彻了这种神人同在的倾向。于是，不是孤立的，摆脱世俗生活，象征超越人间的出世的宗教建筑，而是入世的，于世间生活环境联在一起的宫殿宗庙建筑，成了中国建筑的代表。从而，不是高耸如云，指向神秘的上苍观念，而是平面铺开，引向现实的人间联想；不是可以使人产生某种恐惧感的异常空旷的内部空间，而是平易的，非常接近日常生活的内部空间组合；不是阴冷的石头，而是暖和的木质，等等，构成中国建筑的特征。在中国建筑的空间意识中，不是去获得某种神秘，紧张的灵感，悔悟或激情，而是提供某种明确，使用的观念情调，正如中国绘画理论所说，山水画有“可望”，“可游”，“可居”种种，但“可游”，“可居”胜过“可望”，“可行”。中国建筑业同样体现了这一精神。即是说，它不重在强烈的刺激或认识，而重在生活情调的感染熏陶，他不是一礼拜才去一次的灵魂洗涤之处，而是能够经常瞻仰或居住的生活场所。在这里，建筑的平面铺开的有机群体，实际已把空间意识转化为时间进程，就是说，不是像哥特式教堂那样，人们突然一下被扔进一个巨大幽闭的空间中，感到渺小恐惧而祈求上帝的保护。相反，中国建筑的平面纵深空间，使人慢慢游历在一个复杂多样楼台亭阁的不断进程中，感受到生活的安适和对环境的和谐。瞬间直观把握的巨大空间感受，在这里长久漫游的时间历程。实用的，人世的，理智的，历史的因素在这里占着明显的优势，从而排斥了反理性的迷狂意识。正是这种意识构成许多宗教建筑的审美基本特征。
中国的这种理性精神还表现在建筑物严格对称结构上，以展现严肃，方正，井井有条（理性）。所以，就单个建筑来说，比起基督教，伊斯兰教和佛教建筑来说，他确实相对低矮，比较平淡，应该承认逊色一筹。单就整体建筑群说，他却结构方正，逶迤交错，气势雄浑。它不是以单个建筑物的体状形貌，而是以整体建筑群的结构布局，制约配合而取胜。非常简单的基本单位却组成了复杂的群体结构，形成在严格对称中仍有变化，在多样变化中又保持统一的风貌。即使像万里长城，虽然不可能有任何严格对称之可言，但它的每段体制则是完全雷同的。他盘缠万里，虽不高大却连绵于群山峻岭之巅，像一条无尽的龙蛇在作永恒的飞舞。它在空间上的连续本身即展开了时间中的缠绵，成了我们民族的伟大活力的象征。

《美的历程》李泽厚

P.S. 与其上网回帖子，不如回家看看书。

Garden Party by Ricky Nelson

2011-03-01T23:35:00.001-06:00

I went to a garden party to reminisce with my old friends
A chance to share old memories and play our songs again
When I got to the garden party, they all knew my name
No one recognized me, I didn't look the same

But it's all right now, I learned my lesson well.
You see, ya can't please everyone, so ya got to please yourself

People came from miles around, everyone was there
Yoko brought her walrus, there was magic in the air
'n' over in the corner, much to my surprise
Mr. Hughes hid in Dylan's shoes wearing his disguise

'n' it's all right now, learned my lesson well
You see, ya can't please everyone, so you got to please yourself

lott-in-dah-dah-dah, lot-in-dah-dah-dah

Played them all the old songs, thought that's why they came
No one heard the music, we didn't look the same
I said hello to "Mary Lou", she belongs to me
When I sang a song about a honky-tonk, it was time to leave

'n' it's all right now, learned my lesson well
You see, ya can't please everyone, so you got to please yourself

lot-dah-dah-dah (lot-dah-dah-dah)
lot-in-dah-dah-dah

Someone opened up a closet door and out stepped Johnny B. Goode
Playing guitar like a-ringin' a bell and lookin' like he should
If you gotta play at garden parties, I wish you a lotta luck
But if memories were all I sang, I rather drive a truck

But it's all right now, learned my lesson well
You see, ya can't please everyone, so you got to please yourself

lot-dah-dah-dah (lot-dah-dah-dah)
lot-in-dah-dah-dah

舒心的肖邦

2010-08-18T22:57:00.002-05:00

索尼专卖iPod

2010-08-08T13:34:00.001-05:00

Captured in Wuhan, China.

我们生两个孩子吧，一个送给你妈，一个送给我妈！

2010-08-02T22:55:00.001-05:00

标题是在收到我妈留言后写下的，留言内容请自己领悟。有意者请来电洽谈。

归元寺

2010-07-31T01:21:00.003-05:00

和尚跟道士终究是不太一样的。骨瘦嶙峋的道士总是好道士，而肥头大耳的和尚才是好和尚。归元寺的和尚虽然并不肥胖却颇为时尚。他们理着锃亮的光头，带着飞行员试的墨眼镜，穿着V领的小背心，裤子宽大而绑着腿带，再蹭上一双回力球鞋，倒有点像九十年代跳健美操的那些人。一位这样打扮的老僧人漫步走进佛堂，手里抓着一大串支支花，香气袭人。他将花送给了在佛堂里维持秩序的阿姨们。阿姨们一面和方丈嬉笑调侃，一面谴责着偷偷拍照的游客们。

上一次来拜访这座香火旺盛的寺院大概是十年以前了，而且居然也是在XL的陪同下。虽然此时非彼刻，但她对朝拜算命这项活动却依然乐此不彼。于是我也虔诚的跪拜了各路神仙，数了罗汉，并求得一签

秉赋聪睿三世修，意志坚强六度成。
十年聚首朝归元，一悟真空万境闲。

是的，十年转眼过了。而我的心如何才能空闲下来？

好像是的

2010-07-21T22:16:00.001-05:00

像西雅图的雨
像洛杉矶的阳光
像vail山谷里的风和雪

的

是会说话的眼睛
是无懈可击的笑容
是飘走的言语和承诺

遥远不可触及的幸福
像你

还在原地等待的
是我

少想女人，多想宇宙！少想爱情，多想发财！

2010-07-15T09:22:00.000-05:00

就这些

69 & BJ

2010-05-24T21:21:00.002-05:00

June 9th, arrive at Beijing.

白头发

2010-05-13T23:12:00.002-05:00

原来有白头发，几根，女人翻来覆去的帮你挑出来，摘掉。
现在有白头发，一群，风吹过的时候，在阳光下闪闪发亮。

P.S.今天用Google Pinyin，打"Nv You"，发现"女优"竟然是第一提示，出现"女友"前面。

The "I am married" post

2010-05-10T23:39:00.001-05:00

The technology of facebook and twitter has reached it's new peak with the ever so popular "I am married" posts. A short personal message or a status update would share with the world your greatest moment in life. And in return, your inbox will be flooded with greetings, wishes and thumbs up. Although I would still love to be told with a surprise phone call or a wedding invitation, I am actually quite a big fan with the modern approach. After all, who has the time and energy to remember all of their friends nowadays.

Perhaps it is with great fortune, that I have seen many of these posts in the past few months, and I would like to congratulate all the lucky couples again. But something has started to haunt me in the recent days, I fear, I fear that I would be informed by a emotionless web browser that "you are married". Just those words, and nothing else. Ergo, deactivation of facebook.

Yet another nuvi

2010-04-28T23:21:00.010-05:00

近况

2010-04-15T23:48:00.001-05:00

1. 忙
2. 严重过敏
3. 睡眠不足
4. deactivated facebook

I like it

2010-04-08T23:30:00.003-05:00

狐狸
词曲:万晓利

我是一只狐狸
我住在森林里
我的对手太愚蠢
我谁也看不起

人们都只看到
我长得很美丽
他们都不知道
我的心也是善良的

都以为我很坏
都以为我不实在
都以为我的心里
没有一点爱

所以我变得很虚伪
到处在找机会
谁要是爱上我
我就让谁倒霉

唉......

日子过了多少天
一切还是没改变
我不停的在修炼
很快就要变成仙

突然有天我发现
一个东西真可怜
他在到处做宣传
人们都被他欺骗

唉......

我终于醒悟了
这个世界早已改变了
现在不是从前了
兔子比狐狸狡猾了
我终于醒悟了
这个森林里没有童话了
兔子扬言要玩我
我夹着尾巴逃跑了

the art of Nick Japaridze

2010-04-05T22:00:00.004-05:00

I came across this in the "Museum of Contemporary Art" when walking across downtown Hot Springs, AR. I really like his style and the details are amazing.

四世不同堂

2010-03-31T00:05:00.005-05:00

猥琐的我成功的意淫了一把鲁迅先生的后人。

洗劫一空

2010-03-10T23:50:00.002-06:00

上个礼拜天是肖邦诞辰两百周年纪念日，波兰人民举国欢庆。一转眼，李云迪勇夺肖邦国际钢琴比赛冠军已经十年了。这项比奥运会，世界杯更难等来的赛事，这次一定会更受世人瞩目了吧。我小时候也弹过点钢琴，可是因为吃不了那个苦就都荒废了。想想现在多少小朋友们在经历着跟我曾经同样的痛苦啊。我为他们祈祷。

是啊，弹钢琴的中国娃娃是越来越多，学唱戏的中国娃娃确实越来越少了。

前两天心血来潮，又回顾了一下《霸王别姬》。有个镜头始终令我难以忘怀。在众人簇拥下，穿白色西装的程蝶衣跨下人力车的那一刻，实在是，太帅了。在那个年代，程蝶衣和黄小楼绝对是大腕。可时隔不过几十年，如今的中国戏曲已经沦落成为鸡肋，一个挂着国粹头衔的鸡肋。

艺术是文化的载体。正在流失的不仅仅是艺术，而是我们的文化。只是我不懂，为什么西方的经典可以长盛不衰，而中国的戏曲则需要改变来适应。难道中国的经典最终不是经典？难道戏曲这种表演艺术必定是要改变？好莱坞一个劲的输出自己的性和暴力，换走的不仅仅是中国人的钞票，也正在将我们的文化洗劫一空。

在这个娱乐形式五花八门的时代，古典音乐和中国戏曲在经受着同样的考验。只是当俄罗斯钢琴家索科洛夫在坚持自己所有的唱片必须要是现场表演录制时，央视却把《红楼赞花》这样一个关公战秦琼的节目搬上了春晚。是啊，葬花怎么行，必须得赞，还得搞笑，还得和谐，还得无厘头。侯宝林他老人家相声里说的真切，你要不这么搞啊，“‘他不管饭’（指着台下的）”。几年前在学校，那时候也会活泼的去搞春晚演出。和一位很敬重的德国老师闲聊，说怎么拌才能让中国人外国人都看了高兴。他的回答让我印象很深刻，他说“搞你自己的东西，做你的文化，把欣赏的任务交给观众，中国人会懂，外国人会去感受。”

我记得小的时候，爷爷会抽着烟，敲着二郎腿，随着收音机里并没有什么节奏的京剧摇头晃脑。而我则是在一旁叫嚣着，穿着破裆裤，扛了一卷挂历学孙悟空打拳。我并不懂戏曲，而且很久都没有听过。只是近来有些想念。

赴德州送友人（三）

2010-02-28T12:56:00.000-06:00

友人于二月二十六日美东时间早上六点，滚蛋了。

完。

给自己的歌

2010-02-26T00:24:00.002-06:00

给自己的歌
---李宗盛
想得却
不可得
你奈人生何
该舍的舍不得
只顾著跟往事瞎扯
等你发现时间是贼了
它早已偷光你的选择
爱恋不过是一场高烧
思念是紧跟著的好不了的咳
是不能原谅
却无法阻挡
恨意在夜里翻墙
是空空荡荡
却嗡嗡作响
谁在你心里放冷枪
旧爱的誓言像极了一个巴掌
每当你记起一句就挨一个耳光
然后好几年都问不得闻不得女人香
往事并不如烟
是啊
在爱里念旧也不算美德
可惜恋爱不像写歌
再认真也成不了风格
我问你见过思念放过谁呢
不管你是累犯或是从无前科
我认识的只有那合久的分了
没见过分久的合
岁月你别催
该来的我不推
该还的还该给的我给
岁月你别催
走远的我不追
我不过是想道尽原委
谁能告诉我这是什麼呢
他的爱在心里埋藏了抹平了几年了仍有余威
是不能原谅
却无法阻挡
爱意在夜里翻墙
是空空荡荡
却嗡嗡作响
谁在你心里放冷枪
旧爱的誓言像极了一个巴掌
每当你记起一句就挨一个耳光
然后好几年都问不得闻不得女人香
然后好几年都问不得闻不得女人香
想得却不可得
你奈人生何
想得却不可得
情爱里无智者

Ipod

2010-02-21T22:24:00.003-06:00

初一打电话

2010-02-14T21:18:00.001-06:00

爸爸说“妈妈不在，今天初一，妈妈出去给耶稣做祷告了”
爸爸还说“原来过年，半个月前就要开始跟老同学联系，赶车坐船一天走访一家，现在边看冯巩的小品边群发短信”

奶奶说“去太子吃的年饭，吃完回来就饿了，然后我跟你爸妈一人下了碗面。”
奶奶还说“我现在耳朵不好了，而且有点老年痴呆”

侄女说“我晓得你是哪个，舅舅撒”
侄女还说“我在打游戏，我妈跟你说啊”

姐姐说“有什么需要的跟我说，我给你寄”
姐姐还说“再QQ上注意看我的留言，莫老不回我”

姑姑说“你什么时候回来啊，我们都很想你，回来看看奶奶”
姑姑还说“你跟你侄姑娘买的游戏机，那个养狗的游戏机，现在不玩了，现在养了条真狗”

XL说“妈的，外头一天到晚在放鞭，烦死了”
XL还说“我妈知道你跟你女朋友分手了”

YQM说“我刚喝过酒回来”
YQM还说“是啊，才九点，这帮人没劲，我准备打星际”

CY说“小贱人”
CY还说“刘海和内眼线可以拯救你”

赴德州送友人（二）

2010-02-10T23:59:00.004-06:00

So I got on the plane. What I thought I'd do was that I thought I could finish reading this book I had, "the Cather in the Rye", by this Salinger guy. It's a terrific book, it really is. I had it for only a week, and I was almost to the end, and I am a really slow reader. I am probably the slowest you would ever seen in your life, no kidding. And if I read out loud, I could barely understand what I was reading about. I am a terrible reader, English is my second language. Anyway, I got on this sad looking plane with these old crumby seats, with my book in my laptop case. Everytime I fly, I'd always choose to sit next to a pretty girl so I could give her a good old flirty chat. It hadn't work out for me too good, but I'd always try to pick the best-looking doll on the plane and sit next to her. I am really a pervert like that, I swear to God I am. Not today though, I picked the first aisle seat I could find and sat down, I wasn't gonna talk to anyone, I really wanted to finish this book I had. I started reading as soon as I finished buckling the goddamn seat belt as they call it, which you know is really a bunch of bull. Who the hell needs a seat belt thirty thousand feet up in the air, it's not going to help a bit if the goddamn plane crashes. Then I thought what this wise guy once told me, I forgot his name though, but this guy once told me that the the oxygen masks on the airplane won't help your safty at all, it's just there to pump enough oxygen into you so you feel high before you die. It freaked me out a bit, it freaked me out because I thought there is nothing on this damn plane can save my life if it was going to crash. Nothing, absolutly nothing.

To tell you the truth really, the more I flew, the more I thought I was going to die on a plane. Every time during taking off, landing, or even the slightest vibration with the plane, I would think it was going to crash. And I kept trying to picture myself during a plane crash, thinking of what I would do, but I can't, I really don't know how I was going to react to it. I would probably be scared as hell though. It's really a funny feeling to tell you the truth, sometimes I get excited even just thinking about it, but I never wanted it to really crash. I would be sad as hell if it really crashed, so would my parents.

Anyway, I opened the book to where I left off last time, the book I was telling you about, "the Cather in the Rye". I used these southwest drink coupons as bookmarks, I was also looking forward to a bit drinking on the plane too. The drinks always taste stronger on the plane, I don't know why, probably because it is so high up. The reason I got these coupons is because I used to have this long distance relationship with a girl, so I had to fly quite a bit. She was a real nice girl, and I loved her and all. I really did. I was going to marry her and everything. Things didn't work out though, I was sad as hell. I still am. The moment I saw those goddamn drink coupons, I started to think of her again, and all the memories start to come back to me, I was emotional as hell. Then all the sudden the plane started to take off, and I started to cry the moment I felt the seat pressuing on my back, I couldn't hold it off anymore. The plane started to take off, and as I always thought about the plane crashing during it's taking off, I really hoped it could happen this time.I hoped the goddamn plane could crash and take me down with it.

I dropped the book, and tried to fall asleep.

赴德州送友人（一）

2010-02-05T15:30:00.001-06:00

友人要回国了，回国发展。于是哥几个挑了相对暖和的德州给送行。送行无非也就是喝酒，踢球，以及探讨人生哲理。对这几项活动我都很感兴趣。于是定了机票，租了车。原本说给这厮租辆豪华轿车，让他也风风光光的上路。后来发现luxury实在太贵，于是只给租了辆Full-size Sedan，估计也就是个新版的福特。十块一天。现在想想觉得确实寒碜了点，再加上友人最要面子，怕不好交代。没办法，实在不行咱弄几个唢呐，吹上一首妹妹你大胆的往前走。咱中国人，讲究的就是个热闹。

要登机了。待续。

In defense of Bernard Madoff

2010-01-26T21:14:00.006-06:00

Bernie was the man with infinite wisdom, and immensible reputations. This description took a sudden turn after the fall of his $50 billion dollar ponzi scheme. He is now the heartless criminal who deserves no sympathy and a good beating in the prison. But I feel for this guy, I think the anger people took on him were a bit outrages, especially from the so called real Wall-street folks. After all, none of the Wall-street powerhouse investment firms had any money in the Madoff Securities, I suspect it is only because they have figured it out long ago. But out of all the intelligent people who figured it out, only one guy, Harry Markpolos spoke out about it. So hear me out.

First of, for all those people who lost their money, you know it's the greed got into you, I mean come on, 12% consistent annual return is just too good to be true. And if you think about it, the whole reason Bernie's operation failed is because of the nervy investors started pulling out their money when the stock market crashed, but Madoff never invested their money in stocks. If you trust him, you should have trusted him all the way even through the toughest times, then all of you would be still enjoying your 12% annual return while everybody else on Wall-street is crying. The bottom line is that giving your money to Madoff is no different from giving it to the other Wall-street investors, because you have no idea what the fuck they are doing with your money anyways. In my opinion, the amount of risk taking by investing with Madoff was practically none if you are the smarter ones and know to pull your money out early.

Secondly, Bernie Madoff never tried to cover it up when he saw things started falling down, he turned himself in immediately to the authorities. He was always calm and composed, compare to the other Wall-street firms who tries to scare the world off with their "too big to fail" slogans. Gambling with other peoples money, that is what they all do, at least Bernie did it with some decency. In the end, the Wall-street firms not only survived but striking back with greater profit and bonuses, so I guess maybe Bernie was just a bit less good at bending the rules, or simply not big enough. Or maybe, just maybe, the rest of the people like us were just way more stupid compare the people who invested with Madoff Securities.

Thirdly, Bernie Madoff took it like a man, pleading guilty on all charges with no plea bargaining and didn't sell out on a single other person. Anyone with a bit common sense would know that there is a bigger scandal here. Who is he trying to cover up? Who all knew about this? Bernie didn't say a thing, this took some guts. If he were to live in ancient China, he would be at least titled “忠义(zhong yi)” by people on the street.

For all those who were about to give me the looks, listen, I am not trying to sympathize or defend Bernie Madoff here. I know it's just way easier to blame it on a single person when shit goes down, it's only human nature. But in comparison, all those smart people who missed the housing bubbles, who guaranteed subprime mortgages, who traded unregulated Credit Default Swaps, who fucked up the entire economy and robbed your money at point blank, really got off easy.

萧十一郎，太帅啦

2010-01-23T01:26:00.005-06:00

希望我有一天也能做一个声名狼藉，浮华不实，觊觎宝刀，拐骗纯真少女的江湖败类。

转弯

天苍苍,路漫漫,人在人海里流着浪
风在飞,心在盼,爱在爱情里靠个岸
夜夜夜里高唱,唱尽人情冷暖世情如霜
聚与散,悲与欢,如此纠缠
天在晃,路在转,心在心动时受了伤
那风越穿,心越乱,梦在梦醒时转了弯
深深深情几许,如果一刀能够化作两断
就让一切在这地方松绑
峰已回,路已转,此情何苦枉断肠
爱是没有人能够解开的两难
了了断,圆了谎,莫道当时已惘然
当作生命里最美的转弯
(就当你和我转个弯)

不是忽悠，纯属扯淡

2010-01-08T18:50:00.010-06:00

今天长见识了。

中午和几个老中同事聊天，谈到大陆的贪污腐败。一位同仁语出惊人，“腐败实际上是有钱人拿钱来换取权利的一种方式，为了避免被革命而流血牺牲。要保护中国这十几年财富的积累，这样其实是可行的，中国需要稳定。” 另一位连忙说 “你说的很对，腐败只不过是一种资源的合理再分配。这种慢慢的资源再分配需要在相对稳定的环境中进行。” 我只得坐在那里，虽然对这两位仁兄看问题的独特角度佩服的五体投地，但心里还是知道这种听上去很玄的说法，大多都是忽悠。

开车回家的时候，细细想了想，发现这，不是忽悠，纯属扯淡。再说，中国资源再分配的骨干行业不是妓女吗？

《Nine》归来

2010-01-04T22:07:00.004-06:00

A movie which has no special meaning to you unless you are as messed up as the Guido Contini, or me.

Other things to note,
Cinematography and Costume Design are excellent.
Music is OK.
Daniel Day-Lewis is sexier than ever despite of his awful singing.

关于赌博的一点反省

2009-12-28T21:02:00.003-06:00

上次去Vegas，我用仅存的一些硬币给XL寄了封明信片，写下了：亲爱的，我输了$600!!! 后来她在QQ上鄙视了我一番，并自嘲的说 “我是不赌博的，因为我典型的输不起。所以我不健康。”

其实我也不健康，因为我从来无法真正享受赌博这件充满乐趣的事情。尽管渴望玩命劳动和肆意挥霍的大起大落，但背负的责任却常常令人潇洒不起来。所以生活对我来说，基本上就是徘徊于放心大胆的庸俗和谨小慎微的犯贱之间。

在感情上我同样是这样吝啬的。因为自己的输不起，也往往害怕别人的付出。辛苦了那些人。

何时才能解脱，我的存款，我的房子，我的豪华轿车，我的情人。

Merry Christmas

2009-12-24T19:42:00.003-06:00

Live from Winter Park, CO.

无题

2009-12-20T23:20:00.002-06:00

今天买了黄花鱼做火锅。第一次开膛杀鱼。我发现，母鱼的肚子里总是比较有货。

不管是东南风还是西北风

2009-12-09T23:00:00.009-06:00

下雪了。我站在屋子外，陪着远处的房子一起抽烟。

风。四面八方的胡乱跑着，嗷嗷的，好像谁家正在挨打的孩子。一丝寒流从裤底飞了上来，钻进裆内，让我明白了三角形内裤的奥妙。

哥本哈根关于全球气候变暖的大会正如火如荼的进行着，而我却丝毫领会不到它的精神。反倒是寒冷，可以很清晰的感受。在这个风雪交加的日子里，我突然很能理解生长在阿拉斯加的佩林。

Copenhagen Climate Conference: http://en.cop15.dk/
O'Reilly on global warning: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q-qWenSinKY

Can't stop coughing

2009-12-05T01:25:00.002-06:00

都他妈快成QQ了。

（六）提肛疗法

2009-12-02T21:37:00.001-06:00

提肛是做肛门部位的收缩运动，用这种运动来防止疾病就是提肛疗法。

提肛疗法是通过肛门节律性运动，刺激肠壁感觉神经末梢，是指肠蠕动加强，产生便意，同时对前列腺施行按摩，可以促进会阴部的静脉回流，是前列腺充血减轻，炎症消失。

【方法】
（1）仰卧床上，全省放松，将臀部及大腿用力夹紧，配合吸气，舌舔上腭，同时肛门向上提收，向人大便一样（提肛们时稍闭一会气），让后放下，同时配合呼气，小腹鼓起，全身放松。这样一呼一吸，一提一收为1次，连作50次。每日早晚都做，效果更佳。也可采取坐位或站位。
（2）身体下蹲，略向前倾，以40 ～ 50次/分的速度进行提肛门有规律的收缩运动。每次时间为3～5分钟，每日早晚各做一次。
行此疗法应注意到以下几点：
（1）每晚临睡前及早晨起床时，躺在床上提肛50次。
（2）大，小便后提肛10余次。
（3）在干重体力劳动后要注意做提肛疗法。
（4）性生活后提肛30次左右。此时提肛尤其重要，因为性兴奋时，前列腺过度充血，液体分泌大量增加，提收肛门能是前列腺很快收缩，是前列腺液及时排出。提肛必须用力，提后最好马上拉屎。

【适应症】
痔疮，脱肛，肛裂，便秘和前列腺炎等病症。

I feel like we've died and gone to heaven, only we had to climb up!

2009-11-30T22:22:00.003-06:00

Nothing could have described better than this quote of how I felt after two days of continual drinking followed by rolling down a icy mountain with a snowboard strapped on my feet.

Good trip none the less.

The quote is from a witty little film called "Barefoot in the Park", which I highly recommend to the hopelessly romantics.

那些定格的画面 - 花房姑娘

2009-11-29T01:07:00.006-06:00

车上放着这首《花房姑娘》，崔健在音响里嚎着，我摇头摆尾的哼着，她不知所谓的听着。

。。。你说我世上最坚强，我说你世上最善良。。。

唱到此处，她漫不经心的调侃了一句，“还挺客气的”，并继续歪着头看着窗外向后跌到的风景。

A Serious Man

2009-11-24T23:08:00.001-06:00

It has baffled me for days now who Larry Gopnik from "A Serious Man" looks like. Yes, the young Noam Chomsky. I guess that must be the common Jewish style back in the 70s.

清清的博客

2009-10-27T20:17:00.000-05:00

看了清清的博客，写的很好，很真实，很动情。

清清变了，我也变了。

真情可贵
突然，很想对自己过去的感情生活总结,看看走过的痕迹,是否值得留恋.
早恋,没有过后悔,很怀念那时的纯真和美好,遇见一个很优秀的男生,虽并不懂得爱,却被他深深爱着,宠着,温暖着,幸福着..向来都是我行我素,并未懂得珍惜,肆意挥霍着他的爱,一年后，我们分开了..之间发生过一些事,很冲动，很傻,却很真..
若干年后,重新恋爱,瞬间喜欢上另一个男生,很少见面却感觉幸福，他会经常大老远跑来看我,疼我,容忍我的一切,慢慢的,我却发现自己的感觉越来越模糊,对他,不再有感情,所以很坚决地提出分手,我很清楚，此时,心里已经有了原来的他..
我们又在一起了,上天的安排,我比从前更爱他,却还是留不住他,好象越亲近,却反而越不了解,那么亲密的人却很陌生,很难过,也很无奈.真爱就是互相伤害,双方已经遍体鳞伤,至少我是,在我最想结婚的时候,他选择了婚姻,新娘不是我..却还说着爱我.真的,很难接受这么沉重的爱.没有眼泪,欲哭无泪是最深的悲伤..
好容易慢慢淡忘过去,鼓起勇气,再次接受所谓的爱情,这次更艰难.说服自己去面对,却发现真是心有余而力不足,期望很大,失望更大,我再次感受到了背叛的酸楚,没话可说,只能选择放弃,感情真没有对与错，也没有合适不合适,只有珍惜不珍惜.我真不喜欢勉强的.
没办法同过往的男友做朋友,爱过,可不能当什么都没发生,伤的痕迹还在,做不到视若无睹.我会默默关注他们,却不愿再回忆过去,希望他们幸福,至少我的退出是值得的.
那么,现在呢,我还在执着地追求真爱,哪怕会受伤,爱过就不后悔,为了爱,仍然可以赴汤蹈火.很难相信,伤痕累累还能投入,疯狂地爱.这就是爱的力量吧,真挚而热烈..
爱过一些人,有深有浅,但都很真心,有过快乐,有过悲伤,却都很真实,不后悔付出的一切,真情总是可贵的,我始终相信.

无题

2009-10-13T23:08:00.000-05:00

顽固地坚持着毫无理由的狂躁
仅仅只为了那些卑微的习惯
自私的人们疯狂地讲述自己的悲剧
还给我我沸腾流淌的液体
还给我你指缝里我流血的肌肤
他们痛苦的咆哮，呻吟着
只为了那一触即发的快感
就像赤裸裸的性一般
茫然即将到来

我发现

2009-10-09T22:29:00.001-05:00

我发现，大便完以后，在同一个没有抽过风的厕所里洗澡是一件非常愚蠢的事情。

Responsibility To Protect or License To Kill

2009-09-23T23:09:00.006-05:00

Responsibility To Protect, or R2P is the new international security protocol for addressing the failure to prevent and stop genocides, war crimes, ethnic cleansing and crimes against humanity. It is currently being debated at the UN general assembly. Why debating, one may ask, shouldn't the responsibility to prevent crime against humanity be endorsed universally? If you look under the hood, you may find this is a very messy issue.

Four distinguished intellectuals, including Noam Chomsky lead the open debate in front of the UN general assembly on July 23rd, 2009. The discussion was at length, but the essence is that such protocol, if not properly defined and implemented, would instead give the powerful western world not only the responsibility to protect but the license to kill. A great number of example was given through out the history that such "responsibility to protect or to free" has lead to great tragedies, from the colonization, to slavery, to the ethnic cleansing of the American Indians, and to the recent Iraq and Afghanistan war. If this was to be adopted as the international security protocol used by the UN, then the implementation must be designed carefully. For example, if it was up to the UN Security Console to decide weather such responsibility to protect is to be carried out, then how does this sanction apply to the 5 nations in the Security Console (because of the Vito right that each nation have)? How does one define the terms crime against humanity? There are thousands of children starving to death in South Africa every day, and they are not being helped by any powerful nation, how is that not crime against humanity itself? Also, although not mentioned in the debate, if it is a "responsibility", then what happens if we fail such responsibility? Responsibility is more than Right, and it must have consequences if fail to comply. All in all, although the idealism behind this can be agreed by all, we need to look closely to exam how to use it wisely to not fail ourselves once again.

You can find Chomsky's notes here, http://www.chomsky.info/talks/20090723.htm

You can watch the whole video here, http://webcast.un.org/ramgen/ondemand/ga/63/2009/ga090723am.rm

Sunset

2009-04-23T20:51:00.001-05:00

门

2009-04-16T22:14:00.002-05:00

歌曲：门
歌手：郑钧专辑：天下没有不散的宴席

也许本来就不该让我进来
你应该把我拒绝在大门外
最好不要怪我把你伤害
你应该知道我没有未来
可善良的人你打开了门
现在一切都被破坏
我奇怪我自己都干了些什么
你不必原谅我我比你更悲哀

那道门已经被破坏欢乐再也回不来
那道门已经被破坏欢乐再也回不来

就要离别的时候我并不想走
顾盼左右只盼望着你挽留
这是最后一回谈论到爱
从今以后我将不会再来
我听到了哭声绝望的声音让我心里很难受
犹如刀在割流的血很多
该如何安慰你已经无话可以说

那道门已经不存在欢乐再也回不来
那道门已经不存在欢乐再也回不来

我奇怪我自己都干了些什么
该如何安慰你只能重复着一句

和你在一起多美好就算什么都得不到
和你在一起多美好就算什么都得不到

Around the US in 7 days

2009-04-10T00:41:00.004-05:00

This is on the top of my list if I ever get unemployed.

童童（转载）

2009-04-05T21:19:00.003-05:00

LY基本不客博，今天偶然发现他更新了一把，别有风味，特此抄来。

04/01/2009 姑姑要回家了，童童想让姑姑买小老鼠，奶奶不同意，说那些有毛的动物奶奶没法养，奶奶过敏。童童接着说，我还有毛呢，你不养我了？奶奶解释道，你的毛和他们的不一样。姑姑把小乌龟给童童带回家了，童童给他们起名字了，一个叫聪聪，一个叫笨笨。这么天才的创意，比叔叔婶婶强多了。

叔叔应该是LY。

梦 ● 想

2009-04-02T20:22:00.010-05:00

很久没有做过梦了，大概已经忘了怎么做。也可能是早以失去了做梦的能力，所以无梦可做。

昨夜爆冷，风狂躁的拍打着窗户想要进来取暖。飕飕的，被吵醒了。怀着无比愤怒的心情，我去把窗户关了严实。再回到床上的时候，猛然发现刚才居然在做梦。于是拼命想，想赶紧睡着了继续做，想醒来的时候能够记住梦了些什么玩意。结果今早醒来却大失所望，什么也没想起来。

但至少看来，梦，我还是会做的。只可惜我不会想。不会梦想。

我从小就没什么梦想。小学老师问我长大想干点什么，我只会说科学家，老师很高兴的说，真好。看着老师纯洁的笑容，我也想，科学家，真好。

其实，我一直很想做一个厨子。我上学那时候很瞧不起卖盒饭的，觉得他们特没水平。我宁可多花几块钱去吃小炒，因为可以看厨子做菜，因为他们掂锅的姿势很帅，因为他们用汤勺舀味精的姿势也很帅。可是如果当了厨子，我学的数理化那可就都没用了。而想想党和人民为了我们九年制义务教育付出的血的代价，想想平困地区渴望学习的少年儿童们，想想我为希望工程捐的从父母那里搜刮过来的两块钱，我就毅然放弃了这个小小的梦想。我不要对不起党对不起人民，我不要对不起希望工程对不起爹娘。

我也做了一段时间的钢琴家的梦，画家的梦。当然这些也都是父母托给我的梦，或者更准确的说这些都曾是我的噩梦。近些日子，办公室里的两位老同志在抱怨如何与孩子们斗智斗勇的周旋着他们练琴，还问我当年怎么过来的。我毫无保留的送给了他们一个字，“打”。张阿姨眉开眼笑，马上夸着说，你看吧，你看人家小查现在多有艺术家气质。我想，我是该剪头发了。

再后来的日子，就是千百万中华少年都经历过的心路历程，大致示意图如下：

混小学 ─> 混中学 ─> 混大学 ─> 出国留学 ─> 混外国社会
│ 淘汰 │ 淘汰 │ 淘汰
├──────┼──────┼──────> 混社会

敢梦不敢想大概是我们这一代人的通病。我们都曾是早上八九点钟的太阳，有着永远循规蹈矩的轨道。对于那些踩在我头上爬过去的佼佼者们，我只能说，fuck you too。

早操，好。

There is no break even in Vegas

2009-03-26T23:21:00.003-05:00

Las Vegas. You either win or lose, there is no break even, and that is the beauty.

Best piano and drum duo

2009-03-18T18:03:00.005-05:00

by Gackt and Kami from Malice Mizer

La Petit Prince

2009-03-16T23:56:00.010-05:00

前几天收到大陆友人寄来的几本书，其中一本是Saint-Exupéry的成人童话《小王子》(La Petit Prince)。书很薄，全文两万八千字，很适合像我这样没有文化并且懒的同学。

原著的续很短：

献给莱翁 ● 维尔特

请孩子们原谅我把这本书献给了一个大人。我有一个很认真的理由：这个大人是我在世界上最好的朋友。我还有另外一个理由：这个大人什么都能懂，即使是给孩子看的书他也懂。我的第三个理由是：这个大人生活在法国，正在挨饿受冻。他很需要得到安慰。倘若所有这些理由加在一起还不够，那我愿意把这本书献给还是孩子时的这个大人。所有的大人都起先是孩子（可是他们中间不大有人记得这一点）。因此我把题献改为：

献给还是小男孩的莱翁 ● 维尔特。

我考虑了一下，决定先自以为是的当一回莱翁 ● 维尔特。

Subprime mortgage explained

2009-03-11T22:49:00.008-05:00

In the mortgage market, the term "subprime lending" typically refers to "non-conforming" loans which do not meet Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac guidelines. There are many deciding factors which include the size of loan, income to mortgage payment ratio, quality of the documentation provided with the loan, and etc. The original intent for developing the subprime mortgage market was to expand the availability of mortgage credit to low-income and high-risk consumers, many of whom would previously have had difficulty qualifying for mortgage credit. While subprime lending could be risky for both lenders and borrowers, it is legitimate in legal terms. In fact, it is even encouraged by the passage of the Community Reinvestment Act.

However, subprime lending abuses have frequently occurred due to the nature of its consumer target, usually people with lower income, older, less well educated, less financially sophisticated, and minorities. The passage of federal Home Ownership and Equity Protection Act (HOEPA) has typified the classification of certain predatory lending and enforces additional consumer protections. In addition, many states have installed their own anti-predatory lending laws which are even more restrictive compare to HOEPA. These laws usually impose restrictions on “high-cost” loans charged to borrowers, though there are still many ambiguous areas which have caused heated dispute between lenders and consumer groups, including risk-based pricing, single premium credit insurance, failure to disclose loan price is negotiable, and failure to clearly and accurately disclose terms and conditions. On the other hand, it has also been suggested in the subprime lending market, some borrowers have engaged in “predatory borrowing” practices, including enclose of false information to lenders or falsify legal documentations. Although both predatory lending and borrowing do exist, it is understood to be only in rare occasions.

After all, it is hard to believe that one-fifth of the US home loan market is made up by scams and frauds. In the booming subprime market, more often the cases are lenders and borrowers both understand the situation and are willing to gamble with such risk. Overambitious borrowers are usually hopeful for the housing market, thinking they can make a profit by reselling the house in the near future. Reckless brokers and lenders are driven by the overwhelming demand for mortgage backed securities to make quick profit, plus they would not bear the risk because it will be transferred away onto wall street. When both parties are willing to make such gamble, the system of regulation can be easily manipulated. The widely used methods to make subprime lending effortless are often “stated income loans” and “no income no asset loans”. In either case, lenders would not need to fully verify borrower’s income; instead, borrowers would only need to state their income. In some cases, an accountant will be asked if it is possible for a person to make such level of income with their stated profession, and in other cases, the borrowers words are simply taken as is. Originally, these programs are reserved for the most credit-worthy of borrowers which are usually self-employed or commission-based therefore have difficulties in providing any source of income verification. There weren’t any regulations on such transactions because it has been taken for granted that stingy mortgage companies would never loan their money to unqualified borrowers. At the height of the mortgage boom, however, these types of loans became the routine ways of doing business, for both subprime and prime mortgages. Insiders also called these loans the “lair’s loan”, but it is worth remembering that while one party was lying, the other wasn’t checking. When optimism, greed or plain stupidity overshadowed the common sense of "well informed" brokers and investors, the honor system we take for granted goes out of window and the need for new regulations seems prominent.

终于绿了

2009-03-08T19:03:00.006-05:00

我家门口的草。

至于绿卡，还在排期。当前2005年2月。

下雪天偷窥隔壁邻居

2009-03-01T14:06:00.003-06:00

The Nazi within

2009-02-27T23:04:00.003-06:00

自从当了民工以后，就慢慢开始养成三思而后行的习惯。写了的code，都先要放两天，再过一遍，再checkin。写博客也一样，这篇放了好久了，结果越放越写不下去，越放觉得自己越贱。。。算了，就这样吧。

《The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas》(Spoiler)

影评，透剧情，看了后果自负。

镜头渐渐拉长，没有音乐，只有低沉的回响。最终定格。和电影院里所有的人一样，我坐在那里不能起身。前边有个女人在稀里哗啦的哭。

故事结局给人一种强烈的压迫感。虽然在影片结尾15分钟前观众就已经预感到了悲剧的尾声，但是怀着不安的焦虑，我们迫切希望着小主人公Bruno的救赎。导演并不会成全善良的人们的心愿，随着焚烧炉上一缕青烟的飘起，我们愕然。

然而平静之后，却意识到影片带给我的是一种更深层次的困扰。我被困扰与自己对Bruno的关爱和对其他受害者的无视。焚烧炉里的一百多人，我并没有太多理会，而是仅仅在乎Bruno的安危，甚至对Shmuel也并不关心。短短的两个小时，导演就让我们和主人公建立起了如此深厚的感情，而这虚构的感情却能冲淡我们一切的理性。以至于在一瞬间，让我下意识的分清了谁“该死”，谁“不该死”。看来，把我丢在那个动荡的年代，我也是个该受到审判的人。

其实战争里所谓人性的扭曲，我想应该理解为人性的放大。德国人对民族的爱放大了，日本人对国家的爱放大了。于此同时，民族之间的仇恨也加深了。

而生命，在爱与恨之间又算得了什么。像《the Reader》里的女主人公说的，“what would you have done?”

Dell Mini Review

2009-02-24T23:25:00.009-06:00

I recently purchased this 9-inch dell mini computer for $200. I would say it is worth the investment if you either like to travel light or like to browse youtube while in bed ...

That is, however, all you can do with this thing. Besides the crappy hardware configuration, it has an extremely small and awkward keyboard. Although mine came with OpenOffice, it is not made for cooking up a paper or powerpoint, unless you are already a real slow typer. I did manage to IM comfortably on this thing after a few weeks of adjusting. There are ones which came with a 1.2Mpix webcam, which I think it is a good feature to have if one was to buy.

Other thoughts,

* Battery life is fantastic, capable of streaming movies off wireless network for 4 hours straight.
* Browsing http://www.sina.com uses 80% CPU.
* 4GB default storage, added 8GB storage with SD card

Cheers!

Blog has moved

2009-02-23T23:41:00.005-06:00

to Here as I could no longer stand the continual stupidity of Microsoft. The evil Google empire has taken me to the dark side.

WALL-E

2009-02-23T22:46:00.004-06:00

View Full Album Here

I have a Russian Fetish

2009-02-08T01:45:00.001-06:00

祝大家榴莲快乐

2009-01-24T14:16:00.000-06:00

---- 谨以此贴献给所有那些“恩诶了”(N & L)不分的人

妞妞唱呦呦呦(yo)
溜溜跳扭扭扭
妞妞庆牛年唱呦呦呦
溜溜吃榴莲跳扭扭扭
妞妞呦呦说牛年有牛肉
溜溜扭扭把榴莲都流漏

呦呦呦，扭扭扭

好high啊，拜拜!!!!

之所以叫奶油馒头

2009-01-22T00:10:00.001-06:00

有人问我说。。。。其实，没有人问我。

但是如果不这么说，就会显的我很“文艺”。所以我只能以“有人问我说。。。。”开头，才好接着讲下文。

我是在遇见HM以后才真正认识“文艺”这个东西的。在那以前我一直以为这是个好词。后来在他的博客上看见他说他是如何勾引“文艺女青年”的，我才意识到，“ 文艺”这东西，其实不太适合我。前两天跟XL聊天，也问她如何定义“文艺青年”，她说这是她最恨的词，是用来骂人的。我有些愤愤，只好谈些别的。后来我问她到底是学什么专业的，她很坦然的说了四个字，“文艺理论”。接着她给我背了一首《春江花月夜》，再后来还给我推荐了一首崔健的老歌。

我觉得，新华字典要是定义“文艺青年”的话，就应该附上一首《春江花月夜》，旁边还一定要摆上一张HM和他马子的照片。

/******************** 文艺和文章的分界线 *********************/

所以，有人问我说。。。。为什么叫奶油馒头？

第一次吃奶油馒头是在武汉的一家叫“天宫”的“酒家”里。那时我还很小，但是记得很清楚。盘子上摞了两堆小馒头，一摞白的，一摞黄的，分别是蒸的和炸的，中间有一盘奶油。其实馒头本身已有奶味，如果想更甜，则可以再沾上一点奶油。我比较喜欢吃白的，一口一个，总觉得那滋味跟吃婴儿的小脚差不多。

第一次读到奶油馒头则是在陆幼青的《死亡日记》里，原话是“奶香小刀切”。他告诉女儿，“孩子，你的教育至少从现在看还是东方式的，但已有较重的西方渗透，就像现在超市里卖的小白馒头，配料表里竟有了牛奶的字样。你正式那种‘奶香小刀切’ 。。。。” 很明显，照他这么说，我就是不折不扣的“奶油馒头”。

上个礼拜听收音机，NPR里采访了一位著作畅销百万的中国名作家。只可惜，人名和书名我都忘了。书的主要内容大约是说“中国人的性格是羊”，如何如何。然后作者为此做了一系列的研究与梳理，并得出结论：中国人必须变成“狼 ”才能在这个弱肉强食的世界生存下去。同时也说，中国年轻一代已经初步有了“狼"的个性，但还不够。紧接着播放了几段采访中国青少年的录音，大家伙都彪着英文的，很文艺。我大吃一惊，心说，这个不好吧，不和谐吧。。。但后来作者说到自己“都很吃惊为什么这本书没有在中国被禁掉”，我觉得这就冤枉共产党了。其实这些年，只要不是当面和国家人民对着干，给脸不要脸的，我党基本都是采取睁一只眼闭一只眼的政策。你看，共产党也明白这个道理“其实大家都不傻，你又何必太直白”，只要我面子上过得去，你随便赚你的钱。

我没有读过这本书，所以不敢在这里妄自菲薄的评论中国人的个性到底是羊还是狼。其实说老实话，我也根本就没读过什么书，但是我想，总不能做“披着羊皮的狼”吧。还是叫“奶油馒头”过的去一些，至少能吃，至少听起来不文艺。

/******************* 我与文艺撇清的界限 *********************/

其实，大家对“文艺”不满，多半是觉得搞“文艺”的人很装逼。我觉得搞文艺其实很好，只要不装逼（至少不能让别人看出你在装逼）。想不装逼，就不能搞的太直白，如果像这位写书的作家，就只能显得很文艺。HM说的很好，想真正的“文艺”，最好是像国产007里弹钢琴喝马爹利的周星驰那样，淡逼。所谓淡逼，就是给人一种当时无比帅呆但事后发现自己完全被强奸了一把的感觉。

依我看，方法还有一种，就是义无反顾并毫无保留的装逼，且最终承认自己装逼，像我现在这样，才能和“文艺”撇清界限。

New Year Revolution

2009-01-06T22:51:00.000-06:00

我很怀旧。譬如，12月31号的晚上我没有洗澡，而是留到了元旦那一天。

或者，你也可以说我懒，这个说法相对更准确。

勤劳的人们善于把新事物和旧事物系统化的分开，并会有计划性的变卖处理以及推陈出新，这叫会过日子。生活和别的东西一样，都需要维持。最近这个季节，流行New Year Resolution。

懒人的日子不需要维持，可以简称为混。我差不多就是这样一天一天混过来的，结果是越混越低迷，越过越猥琐。

生活猥琐到一定程度的时候，就基本无可救药了。办法大概就是搬家和出家，可惜对我来说都不太现实。房贷公司和女朋友都不会放过我的。

I have no resolution, I need a fucking revolution。

革了吧，都焦了。

屎香匀

2009-01-03T21:55:00.001-06:00

今天大便的时候，拉出来两坨屎。有一坨屎漂在水面上，还有一坨落在水底。这个发现令我很惊奇，那一刻，我觉得自己很像牛顿。

但是很快我就开始担心是不是我的肠胃不好，肚子哪像功能不全，造成大便搅拌不匀。我趴在马桶旁边好好的观察了一下，才看出来这两坨屎的制造日期其实是不一样的。注意，是制造日期，不是出场日期。有一坨是昨天的，还有一坨是今天的。因为昨天，我吃得是Cashew Chicken。

于是，我满意的冲掉了厕所。

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其实上帝用泥巴捏人的时候也没有搅匀。想想人和屎都一样，有轻有重，有胖有瘦，有黑有黄，有的柔情似水有的心如坚石。但是它肯定不是香的。你是哪一坨？

Vienna New Year's Concert

2008-12-27T13:25:00.001-06:00

PBS will broadcast the Vienna Philharmonic's New Year Concert on Janurary 1st. Check your local listings. Cheers.

http://www.pbs.org/wnet/gperf/episodes/from-vienna-the-new-years-celebration-2009/introduction/430/

偶遇阿尔法罗密欧

2008-12-10T22:07:00.004-06:00

Never thought I'd see an Alfa Romeo in Seattle, but here it was in front of me, with its crispy engine noise humming in my ears. It is certainly a fast car, but it ain't going anywhere in the narrow alley traffic. :)

还有一张自拍，怎么看怎么有点Beatles的味道，哈哈。

PS. These photos are proudly taken by a nuviphone.

旅行杂记－晚餐

2008-12-07T22:06:00.000-06:00

感恩节周末，女友携我在西雅图高尚社区的百万豪宅里同亚裔成功人士共进晚餐，食日本料理，美其名曰“纱布纱布”。后来发现，就是涮火锅。

豪宅，岛上的豪宅，山路崎岖，蜿蜒的令人眩晕，反胃。女友一路指点，说这家是微软某老总，那家是篮球某明星。可惜是夜里，我只看到了他们家亮着的灯。

到达之后，并不是很熟的女主人热情洋溢的吆喝着我的名字，叫我去把桌子摆了。于是我很听话的去了。餐厅里有华丽的吊灯，下面是张十人坐的长桌，上面摆着颜色淡雅的鲜花。女主人安排说，吊灯太低，怕火锅在下面给熏坏了，于是得把桌子给移开。桌子又太长，吃会够不着，于是四个人得挤在一头。接着铺上一层新桌布，以免弄脏已经铺上的更华丽的桌布。

折腾了一番，终于可以吃了。男主人拿出来两瓶啤酒，四个杯子，分头倒上，一起干杯，节日快乐。接着大家亢奋地谈论着经济形势，政治立场，以及各种生活常识。男主人说宝马的车行很差劲，他都在那买了三辆车了，卖车的人还不认识他。我只好恬不知耻的跟着说，灵芝的车行很不错，服务态度很好。接着女主人询问GPS，说我们做的登山产品好像并不好用，我只能连连回答，“是是，我改”。

我感觉，时间过的很慢。

吃着说着，我想到了另外一个镜头。大夏天，路边摊，一圈人袒胸露背，膘着膀子，翘着大腿，和苍蝇蚊子一起围着涮火锅。大口吃肉，大口抽啤酒，高谈阔论，胡说八道。谈什么？谈足球，谈女人，谈游戏机，反正不会是理想和人生。俗归俗，爽归爽，并不在乎。想到这我又觉得自己好笑了，于是回到眼前，狠狠的涮了一块豆腐。后来的事情也就记不太清楚了，我好像还很卖弄的弹了一下他们家的钢琴。

是是。我总是在嫉妒大人物的财富，羡慕小人物的幸福，在患得患失之间显得自己无比的惆怅。我改。

被无聊的人点名了

2008-11-19T21:53:00.000-06:00

1.对自己最想说的话是什么？冷静，冷静

2.什么时候你会感到孤单？基本不会

3.此时你最想念的是谁？爹娘

4.最近最想实现的愿望是什么？没有

5.有压力了怎么缓解？睡觉

6.明天你想遇到什么人？女人

7.遇到喜欢的人，你是勇敢表白还是默默关注？默默勾引

8. 觉得人会变吗？会　　　

9.说出点你名的人的3个优点（不可删除题）有理想，有爱心，有名

10.你最希望从朋友（不包括爱人）那里得到的是什么？钱

11.对点你名的人的第一印象是怎样的？路漫漫，其修远兮

12.什么样的人会让你视为知己？死了的人

13.30岁对你意味着什么？差不多了，就这么着吧

14.面对比你水平高的敌人，你会称赞还是不屑？不屑

15.推荐一部最近喜欢的电视或电影，小说和书也行? RocknRolla

16.今年圣诞节打算做什么？拔牙

17.未来三年有什么打算 ? 结婚生子，汗

18.如果现在可以让你随心所欲去旅行，你想去哪？伦敦，巴塞罗那，

19.会不会做饭？你希望你的伴侣（OR未来的伴侣）？会做饭，不会做菜

20.你是一个会妥协的人吗？非常是

21.你相信缘分吗？无聊的问题，拒绝回答

22.觉得自己是个自恋的人么? 非常是

23.你理想的伴侣应该具备什么样的品质？不要求

24.你是重色轻友的人吗? 非常是

25.爱情中最重要的是什么? 妥协

26.做这些题是什么心情？烦

27.对于你不喜欢的人的情书,你怎么办? 藏

28.经济条件是你选择爱人的必要条件吗？不是

29.喜欢什么样的爱情模式？一见钟情呢还是日久呢？还没搞清楚爱情是什么东西

30.如果你的朋友爱上你的她（他），你采取什么措施？切

31.最喜欢什么样的生活方式？腐败的

32.你觉得住大房子，开好车很重要么？这算是你的目标之一么？不重要。

33.对目前的生活状态满意吗，为什么？一般满意

34.最开心的时候会和谁一起分享？？很难有事情让我开心起来。

35.你喜欢儿子还是女儿，如果一定要选一个的话 ? 儿子

36.拿了年终奖或压岁钱后你想去干吗? 提这种问题的人不是找打吗。。。

37.你对现在的生活有什么感觉？很苍白

38. 你有过让你心痛的事吗？是什么事？丢了二千刀

39.你最难忘的人？很多

40.最近一次大哭是因为什么？被抛弃了

41.你到现在还相信爱吗？这个问题怎么又来了一边，前面不是有吗？

42.被点名是什么心情？窃喜却装烦恼

43.你相信上帝吗？我信，但是上帝不要我

44.希望自己多大结婚？找打的问题，拒绝回答

45. 真正懂得爱的时候是几岁？前面答过了

46.如果你的生命只有3天时间，你最希望完成的3件事情是什么？治愈癌症/解除饥荒/谢谢大家

47.如果给你一个机会，你还会选择你现在的爱人么？会

48.上帝如果满足你一个愿望，你希望满足什么~~~？？让我回到童年

49.你会为你的爱人付出一切吗？会

50.活到目前总有一件事会让你很后悔，如果给你一次机会，你会选择从新来过吗？不丢那两千块钱

健忘

2008-11-15T21:49:00.001-06:00

厕所门口的地板上总是络着一些书，我每回洗脸的时候总是很疑惑，想他们为什么会在那。可惜我洗脸很粗心，时间总是比较短，所以想一会我就去擦lotion 了。结果那些书也从来没被收过，而且数量不断在增加。今天我想了很久，因为今天我被其中一本比较厚的给绊到了。在终于想清楚的那一瞬间，我很豁然开朗，有通便的感觉。

I used to Rock-n-Rolla

2008-11-13T09:40:00.002-06:00

Just came back from Guy Ritchie's "RocknRolla" tonight, and I must say "Gleit Fackin Moovie Mait". While I am sure the film has a huge fan base among the die hard soccer hooligans, it certainly attracts pussy programmers as well, like me and myself. Why not... talking dirty, doing drugs, making money, having sex, stabbing people, and more importantly getting away with all this, is something we all could love. But too bad, that's not a real RocknRolla, as 'Archie' puts it at the beginning of the film, and I quote

"People ask the question... what's a RocknRolla? And I tell 'em - it's not about drugs, drums, and hospital drips, oh no. There's more there than that, my friend. We all like a bit of the good life - some the money, some the drugs, other the sex game, the glamour, or the fame. But a RocknRolla, oh, he's different. Why? Because a real RocknRolla wants the fucking lot. "

Well, that explains it, I am certainly no RocknRolla, because I have little ambitions. So why the title? See, I used to Rock in Rolla. Rolla, a small town in the mid-missouri, the middle of nowhere, which is the best part of nowhere. A place forbidden to the real RocknRollas, but a good place for retired computer science professors to play S&M with Chinese graduate students.

一张不变的皮，两颗难画的心（转载）

2008-11-13T09:39:00.000-06:00

看完画皮，本来想上来大书特书的，结果发现了下文。。。才知道自己又肤浅了。。。

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《画皮》用一个旧版本，言说现代人如何救赎情感危机。

先来说这个旧版本——蒲松龄的原作。很短，叙述太原王生遇狞鬼而以为美，卒因窥破女鬼画皮而被掬心。其妻陈氏，为救夫君回转百般乞求“市上疯者”，而至于食其唾，生乃得还。最后蒲松龄以异史氏的口吻大发议论：“愚哉世人！明明妖也而以为美。迷哉愚人！明明忠也而以为妄。然爱人之色而渔之，妻亦将食人之唾而甘之矣。天道好还，但愚而迷者不悟耳。哀哉！”

“愚而迷者”在今天的社会，一大把一大把的。陈嘉上是个有趣之人，如果说蒲松龄因长年在缙绅人家坐馆，“且将家舍作邮亭，”不免假想象自遣自慰，不仅解除了寂寞，还可以在梦中腾达一番以为现实困顿的补偿；那么，陈嘉上身处当代爱情的重重危险之中，却画出一个大团圆结局，费尽心机地让电影中的每个人在最后都得到了救赎，则可说他是比蒲氏还会做梦的梦者也。“大奶”巩固了和老公的爱情；“小三”消失了，但得到了蓝颜知己口中的表白；“二爷”另有归宿，也不会再来麻烦王将军和王夫人；妖精们也可以再次修炼1000年成人，再去搅不知是谁的局。

你说陈导现代吗，我看他实在传统得可以，似乎真的相信只要你为爱付出，就会与对方“终成眷属”；他的女性观也符合中国男人的想象，女人“大爱无私”，感动男人浪子回头，佩蓉非但贤惠，更懂隐忍，而她爱王生爱得毫无保留，即便化妖仍在所不辞，与蒲松龄在《画皮》中描写陈氏为救夫甘受乞丐羞辱一脉相承；就连陈的婚姻观也不无“门当户对”的老思想，君不见，苏州某豪绅的女儿身份被戳穿后，楚楚可怜的小唯说：我撒谎只是因为不想大家看不起自己的丫头出身。

所以，说电影《画皮》大玩颠覆，借蒲松龄的“皮”，画现代人的“心”，这种说法是不对的，依我看，从蒲松龄的年代到我们的年代，无论男女，都没有太大的改变。“夫－妻－妾”的基本格局没有改变，不过由地上转到了地下；男女的基本心态没有改变，有句话说得好：有100个女人的男人，是皇帝；有100个男人的女人，只能是妓女。

首先说，中国男人的两大基本心态——妻妾心态和狐女心态，一如既往。

中国古代通行的婚姻制度里，是一夫一妻多妾的。女子不事二夫，男子却能够不只有一个配偶。班固在《白虎通义·嫁娶》中有云：“夫者，扶也，扶以人道者也；妇者，服也，服于家事事人者也。”《大清律例·户律》条注：“妻者，齐也，与夫齐体之人也；妾者，接也，仅得夫接见而已，贵贱有分，不可紊也。”这两句话将“夫－妻－妾”的格局解释得一目了然。

大多数的男子三心二意，没有忠诚也没有主见，不是朝三暮四对其他女子动情，便是在事件的处理上犹疑不定。而女子不但不能嫉妒猜疑，还得以宽容的态度去看待夫婿身旁的其他女性。《聊斋》中，女妖被塑造成心胸宽大的女性，她们或为妻，或为妾，都能对夫婿旁的女性多所包容。

在这里，男子对妻、妾的看法是判然有别的。一个好妻子的条件是：1、门当户对，这在前面已经说过；2、能够生殖，所谓“不孝有三，无后为大”；3、贞节无瑕，以保证男人的后代血统纯正；4、三从四德，俯首贴耳，以便维系父权制的家庭制度；最后，但并非不重要的一条是：允许甚至帮助男人讨妾。

妾的要求则完全不同。“娶妻娶德，娶妾娶色”，小老婆的第一条件是年轻美貌，以便满足男人“金屋藏娇”的心理需求；第二条件是招之即来，挥之即去，懂得撒娇耍嗔，但又适可而止，惟命是从，以便满足男人“ 玩女人”的需求；第三是自知其位，不求名份，让男人的家庭保持安定。（可惜的是，妾德到底不如妻德，所以在一部中国史上，因为小老婆问题而闹出了无数的人命案乃至山河破碎。）《聊斋》中，人与鬼狐的相爱，男性大多是有妇之夫，这也说明了“妻子”所代表的是家庭的安定感，但这种安定感不能覆盖男人的其他需求。

这种妾的角色和身份到了一夫一妻制的现代并没有消失，只是转化成了“二奶”和“小三”而已。“二奶”和“小三”并不是妓女，因为她们不是人尽可夫的，但她们即便不以妓女自称，却很难不带有“妓女化”的倾向：她们是当男子在妻子身上找不到某些资源时，转而外求之处，填补了妻子不在时男子的情感空缺，也满足了即使妻子在时亦无法提供给男子的温柔。

在《聊斋》中，女妖其实具有妾的特性。女妖多是来去自如的，即使有些女妖未被作者直接披上妓女的外衣，但却同样被赋予了妓女的特质，不是春风一度后各奔东西，就是缠绵多时后宣告分手。她们不会为男子带来困扰，只要离别的时刻一到，她们便会自动离去，一场无痕的春梦就此结束。当男子获得满足欲离开之时，亦毋须对她们负任何责任。这其实是中国男人梦想的最高境界，基于现代男女交往的高度风险性，如果“二奶”和“小三”们都如女妖，那样该有多好！走笔至此，不能不惊叹蒲松龄对男人心理把握之精准，连现代男人都看得这么透。

由是，我们不能不谈，为什么蒲松龄要把他的梦遗对象确定为女妖而不是凡间女子。这就说到了中国男人的狐女心态——狐女，或曰狐狸精们，满足了男子觅偶的条件。女妖的特点计有：美貌，拥有无法抗拒的魅力；多情多义，在爱情上表现出勇于追求的精神；贤德，具备传统女子的所有美德；聪慧多才，全无传统女性的致命缺陷——无见识、不能自立。由女妖的形象可以看出蒲氏对女性形象的理想化，在女妖的德、才、貌中，女妖一方面能恪守妇德，另一方面还能因异类的身份，对现实的规囿有所超越；不但给书生以性爱上的满足，而且往往助书生摆脱穷困或科举有成。尤其是，对于有贼心没贼胆的男人，她们还往往不请自至……

现代女性有没有女妖心态呢？也有。女妖在很多时候扮演的是一种试验者的角色。现代女妖由试验而登堂入室，会和那些有名份的同类为同一个男人斗狠。在戏里，小唯最开始时是想做王生的妾的，但是随着她的控制欲越来越强，不能将王生跟别人分享，必要取王夫人而代之。现代的小唯，占有欲殊不亚于银狐，有色诱的胆识，有“逼宫”的执着，有“下毒”的凶狠，当然也有爱得不计后果的奋不顾身。

作为小唯对立面的佩蓉，尽管大爱无私令她光彩照人，但她的身上也凸显着女人特有的多疑和自卑，她不懂得现代爱情的脆弱性，或者说，因为太懂这种脆弱性而不知适可而止，无法在丈夫的挣扎关头给予他一份宁静；其实，此一脆弱性陈嘉上表达得最好：“其实爱情是很危险的事情，爱不能解决所有的问题。没有人能够抢走你的情人，要是他走了，那时他们的爱情比你们的重，或者你们本身出了问题。”

如果说，男女情势从蒲松龄的时代到现在有什么改变，最大的变化可能还是出自女人，现代社会，女人变得越来越自立，越来越不可掌握，她们不会在陈嘉上那样的虚幻安排下各得其所。在这个意义上，大团圆结局是俗气的，符合鲁迅先生所说的“互相骗骗”。但陈氏片中的反讽手法，我是极为欣赏的，例如影片中，男人会对女人说：我可以把心掏给你。于是他们就真的被狐狸精把心给掏了。

而片中最大的反讽，乃在于说出，有的时候，爱的人，不过是我们命运中的劫数。李碧华说：“人和鬼都是敌不过岁月的。”不管有多少劫数，也敌不过岁月。

纪念天才

2008-10-24T00:49:00.001-05:00

我有个坏习惯。我习惯在等待BT下载的时候，一边盯着下载的过程条的猛看猛点，一边听九十年代的流行歌曲然后跟着大声唱。这个习惯很浪费时间，也很打扰别人，所以是个坏习惯。

今天下载的是阿森纳的比赛，听的是张雨生的专辑，还好我唱不上去，只能哼哼。一不留神wiki了一把张雨生，结果发现他竟是十一年的今天出的车祸，而且还是凌晨。出于对宿命的迷信和尊重，我不得不在这里来上上香。

怀念一把，纪念一把，这位杰出的音乐天才，和那些我永远唱不上去的好听的歌。

Understanding the global financial collapse

2008-10-02T17:27:00.000-05:00

The following is a BBC special "Super Rich: The Greed Game".

何必西天万里遥

2008-09-28T15:39:00.001-05:00

桃李芳菲梨花笑
怎比我枝头春意闹
芍药婀娜李花俏
怎比我雨润红姿娇
雨润红姿娇
香茶一盏迎君到
星儿摇摇，云儿飘飘
何必西天万里遥
欢乐就在今朝
欢乐就在今宵

悼中秋

2008-09-15T02:01:00.002-05:00

风风雨雨唏唏嘘嘘草草木木残残
掠走相思无限
秋夜凄凉醉几分
不见月光来

辗辗转转
一晃十载自不觉
反叫他人叹心酸
字字难言
唯有聆听是

呜呼哀哉
何日方是月圆时

旅行杂记 - 机场

2008-09-04T17:33:00.000-05:00

镜头一

候机厅里熙熙攘攘，一美女审视良久，挑了帅哥旁边的座位坐下，善意的像帅哥点点头，且暧昧。帅哥回以点头加微笑。瞬时，一女人箭步走来，怀里报着乳臭未干的毛孩，狠狠的瞪了帅哥一眼，且彪悍。帅哥马上笑脸相应，起身让座，且狼狈。只见美女及不自然的转过身去，拿起手机，佯装忙碌。

一切尽收眼底，心说，这个傻逼。

镜头二

候机厅里人满为患，老杨审视良久，挑了美女旁边的座位坐下，酷酷的并没多看美女一眼，且正派。谁知美女眉头一皱，立马起身，提包走人，头也不回，且潇洒。老杨咣当，吴查二人笑翻在地，说，这个傻逼。

镜头三

登记完毕，三人坐下。
杨：“这个飞机不错啊，还有电视。” 随手指着头顶的13英寸彩电。
吴：“土了吧，这都没见过，你看这不还有遥控器呢吗。” 随手指着前面座位上的机舱电话。
查杨二人顿悟，道：“高级啊。。。。。”

后面的老太太听了个明白，心说，三个傻逼。

重庆森林

2008-08-28T23:27:00.003-05:00

终于看了传说中的《重庆森林》。

怀着无可救药的浪漫情结，王家卫在剪辑《东邪西毒》的间隙之余，花两个月时间拍摄了这部影片。之所以叫重庆森林，因为电影的背景选择在了香港的尖沙咀。而尖沙咀有着香港以廉价而闻名的民宅旅社，重庆大厦。因便宜而兴旺，因兴旺而缭乱，因缭乱而混杂，各色人种，各类买卖，欢聚一堂，密密麻麻，不见天日，有如城市里的沼泽，城市里的森林。得名重庆森林。

故事情节不必多说，看过人的已经知道，没看过人的不想知道。有一点是要提的是，周星驰那段“曾经有份真挚的感情。。。我希望是一万年”的经典对白，原来出自这里。现在细想，发现《大话西游》从背景，摄影到音乐上居然都有点抄袭《东邪西毒》的意思。看来周星驰居然是王家卫的铁杆粉丝。还有些其他的感想，罗列余下。

14年前的梁朝伟就虽然有几分稚嫩，但绝对已经有影帝风范。
相比之下，14年前的金城武也还是那么造作粗糙，没有一点进步。徐同学说的不错，“帅，但是没有杀伤力”。可是不知道他这么些年里是怎么保养的，居然一点都没老。
王菲那个时候还在用艺名王靖雯。
九十年代印度兄弟们在香港的地位竟然如此卑微。建议印度兄弟们不要看这部片子。

这里有几个被剪掉的镜头。

Web2.0, the Information Overlord

2008-08-22T19:41:00.014-05:00

Web2.0, it is what I call "a crap load of information". If you want to know the fancy definition, go here.

We all know about Wikipedia, YouTube, Craigslist, Ebay, and etc. We use them everyday. The Internet inevitably has become a crucial part of our daily lives. If the trend continues, I can see it becoming the only part for the generations(human) to come.

But can we really trust the Internet? Do we know where all the information is coming from? I mean, you are reading this blog, how do you intend to digest the information I provide here? Are you smart enough to know what I wrote here is actually complete bullshit? How do you know I am not just some 12year old boy making this up while looking for porn on a library computer?

Maybe I am old fashioned, but when I grab a book from the library shelf, I feel a sense of integrity. I would still question what's been said in the book, but at least it is worth my time to do so. Why? Probably because I know if this was utter crap, no publisher would have printed it because they wouldn't make any money. Remember, "the free market never fails".

With information overload, it is usually much more difficult to filter and find the exact data you desire. Google any current event, you will find at least 500 different related news links and you have no idea which is talking sense. You could spent hours reading and comparing while still not getting all the details. Not mentioning millions amature bloggers like me who are to comment on things which we have no expertise in, or even no idea about. To me, the "Feeling lucky" is certainly not a trusted source for accurate information.

On the other hand, companies like Youtube are making billions in advertisement while using your original content. Some kid in Korean Town probably spent 50 hours sitting in his basement with a webcam trying come up with the most original material, and his is not even paid a cent for it. What happen to intellectual properties? or copyrights? If those so called "musician" or "performing artists" can make millions with the garbage they come up with and still complaining about it, shouldn't we at least get something?

Meanwhile, there is Google coming up with all these cool online collaborative software trying to have you abandon your PC and put everything on their cloud computing servers. Did you know that everything you put on their servers belong to them? not you? So next time you open a new Gmail account, you might want to read about the TERMS.

I know I am dismissing all the goods about the new information age, it is because we already know and we all love. In order to get the point cross and be alerted, one must be as negative as possible. Anyway, my point is that, in the age of information overload, protect yourself and protect your knowledge.

Football, the Greed Game

2008-08-20T23:20:00.003-05:00

In the world of modern football, money is everything.

With all the foreign investment pouring into the English Premiership, a new type of game is played today, the Greed Game. Although nothing new, it is certainly the worst we have ever seen. Players demand higher wages threatening the club with their loyalties; the "Adebayor Transfer Saga" this summer was a classic example. You can read all about it here from goonerboy. To sum it up, an average premiership footballer makes more money in a year than an average person in lifetime span. Is it justified? I don't think so.

So let's see, the footballers certainly makes more money now, and there is no way that the investors will lose money, because that's just not good business. Someone must be paying the debt, who else, of course the dear football lovers like you and me. You may argue that the advertising fees and other sponsorships must be a big factor, and I must agree, but who do you think it's paying for all that at the end? Its a vicious circle, and we are in the middle of it.

It's the nature of Capitalism to not allow the redistribution of wealth, as Noam Chomsky puts it. Lower, Mid class people who work their asses off will only find themselves owning nothing at the end of the day, while the top 1% "elite" people own 65% of the wealth. And history tells us, you have only two ways out, to become part of it or bend over and take it. Wait, I almost forgot, there is always the revolution.

As you may already know, I have chosen to "bend over and take it" for some time now. I do however have the option to choose not to eat a Big Mac or buy a $150 paper clip, or not drive a luxury car. What I can not get over with, is that my beloved sport is now corrupted by this "Greed". But at what point can I say, this is bullshit, I am going to stop watching football because all the corruption. The fact that our passion is involved makes it so difficult to realize what is happening, or to accept it when realizing.

Not to be too negative, there are however many things they can never take away from football, a fantastic long range shot breaking into the back of the net, an unbelievable comeback at the end of the extra time, or even the genuine tears from a player after losing the trophy.

Till later.

当务之急就是买口便宜的锅

2008-08-19T00:57:00.000-05:00

想买锅不是一天两天的事了，很早就想断绝了与那不知来处却跟随了我三年有余的一口锅。可惜太吝啬，于是反复的在dealnews上搜索着。等待着。

上班总是比较晚，到了办公室总是有一种莫名的紧迫感。于是三下五除二的回完邮件，然后从高压暖瓶里挤出一股浓重的翻着泡沫的咖啡，再兑上点白开水，这就是早餐了。接下来就是所谓的工作，写几行代码，看几则新闻，翻几篇八卦，再打上打几个私人电话。这就是一天。生活程式化的像纳粹集中营的焚烧炉一样紧紧有条，也干巴巴的早已失去了激情。

曾经很反感那些失去了激情的人，以及那一亩三分地，老婆孩子热炕头的生活。如今才发现自己早已是扛着旗帜走在资本主义大道上的芸芸众生之一。

程式化的生活如此轻松，可以让你毫无察觉的习惯，等哪天醒来的时候才发现自己早已于曾经海阔天空的理想人生背道而驰。程式化的生活又是如此繁重，不知不觉的你就沉迷于看八卦新闻，下盗版音像，再不就是琢磨着如何找个最便宜的deal。

人的惰性太可怕了。

有很多想做的事情，想学一门第二外语，想好好的把这个blog给耕耘一下，想。。。。想来想去，当务之急还就是买一口便宜的锅。。。

其它的慢慢再来。。。

learned a new word today

2008-08-12T15:15:00.000-05:00

zhuangbility：　装逼

看病

2008-06-10T22:56:00.000-05:00

上午肚子疼，中午就昏了
以为是急性肠炎，因为原来有过
打电话给医院，说
医生要克吃饭了，晕
于是预约下午两点，去了
医生很认真，问了一堆很烦的问题，答之
在肚子上左摁又摁，还要脱裤子，妥之
查不出原因，于是开了一堆检查
血样，尿样，X光，介无解
做CT,还无解
医生下班，说
没什么大问题，回家喝汤
欧克，反之
服吗丁宁两片，无恙

on Judgment

2008-03-11T00:59:00.001-05:00

Men are different because of their living standards, social status, time in history and etc. Therefore it is unfair to judge anyone based on one's wealth, achievement or even thoughts. I can not think of any common grounds for this judgment besides one's success in defeating our common weaknesses.

我对江大的一点印象（武汉话）

2008-03-09T13:28:00.000-05:00

江大离市区比较近，我们上中学的时候经常跑进去踢球，因为学校里面班主任是不让的。虽然江大是开放式校园，但是我们进出的时候一定要小心，动作要快，因为附近蛮多洗钱（抢钱）的。有一次我们踢球出来，有个带墨眼镜在校门口吃羊肉串的人把我叫住了，问我有冒的（有没有）钱，我说冒的，他说明天跟老子带十块钱来，我当时蛮怕他拿羊肉串的签子区（戳）我，我就说好。这时候，我正好看到我们班主任骑自行车从旁边过，我赶紧大叫“柳老师”，我一生中没有这么激动的看见过我班主任。后来他来了，把那个人骂了一顿，那个人就走了。我正想跟柳老师说谢谢的，结果他看到我车子后头夹了个球，就叫我明天交五百字的检讨，我又郁闷了。
江大是个很奇怪的地方，有点像美国的社区大学。说社区大学也就是社会上的人要想进去基本上都可以的，所以龙鱼混杂，聚集了各种人才。我们踢球的时候，经常有一堆头发染的黄黄的人来抢场子，我们不走他们就开始爪（踹）人，然后我们就跑。还有一次，踢着踢着，看见一辆奔驰开了进来，然后车上下来几个三四十岁的西装革履的男人，问我们能不能一起踢。我们答应了，于是他们就开始脱衣服，一件一件的脱，脱的最后只剩三角裤了，然后光着脚开始跟我们踢。我们当时都很诧异，那场球踢完以后我很长一段时间不敢想长大的事情。。。

无题

2007-12-18T22:00:00.000-06:00

当有人问你“真理是否存在？”
你可以答“是”，也可以保持沉默。

幸福

2007-11-29T23:03:00.002-06:00

刘宇说，“幸福是一种状态，平静中也带着激情的状态”。

我坐在马桶上想着这句话，平静的我蹲在那里，充满了无比的激情要憋出中午的那顿麦当劳。原来幸福就是大便。

旅游减肥

2007-11-29T23:03:00.001-06:00

美国的胖子们花在减肥上的钱数以万计，减肥药，减肥班，减肥器材，等等。效果却未必佳。

其实去国第三世界国家旅游一趟何尝不是减肥的好方法。飞跃地球半圈去到遥远的非洲，日夜颠倒，噪室硬塌，虫蝇叮咬，睡眠自然不会好。比起牛排沙拉，异国的饭菜口味也未必和胃口，更有稀奇古怪的食品令人作恶，吃的也不会香。再定上一份繁忙的旅游计划，日日游山玩水，夜夜美酒声歌，不出半月必然身心疲惫，减下三五十斤我看不成问题。这样看来不但可以领略到异国风光，达到了减肥的效果，也促进了亚非拉的经济增长，更有利于各国人民的交流与理解。如此利国利民，两全齐美的事情一定会有所发展。我想也不乏是个生财致富的好路子。

志同道合的朋友请速速与我联系。

paper art ....

2007-05-26T23:09:00.000-05:00

bored out of my mind and i thought I'd tackle something innovative. Here is my paper ashtray ...

阳光小景

2007-05-19T23:02:00.001-05:00

蹲在马路边的阴沟旁看蚂蚁搬运腐烂的毛毛虫的尸体。

满怀信心把生米加油放在锅里做炒饭结果炸成爆米花。

开完运动会光着膀子在街上跟在女生后面等着添一口她手中的糖水冰棍。

摆摊的老板娘驱赶着这群光看不买的小屁孩，他们背着破书包，像西部牛仔一样戴着的红领巾。

雨衣罩着头，坐在父亲自行车的单杠上，视线中唯一的就是车轮破开的水迹，试图保持着平衡。

操场上二三十个孩子追着前面那个抱着足球的孩子，他发疯的跑着，好像脚已经不是他的了。

点评一下之阿森纳

2007-05-15T16:59:00.000-05:00

啤酒一瓶，继续意淫。
四大皆空的阿森纳依然坚持着自己华丽的足球。把球传进对方的门里，也许是他们所追求的终极目标，而且他们也做到了。在防守严密的现代足球场上能做到这一点，阿森那的确拥有着一样与众不同的武器 - 配合。不夸张的说，阿森纳在禁区前十米左右的配合是现欧洲最好的。它不仅仅是一两个人之间的快速短传，而往往是集合三四名球员之间交叉换位的一脚球，有时候令人觉得撕开对方的防线竟然如此容易。在我看来阿森那的四四二有时候更像压制性的四一三二，在加上两个边路爱不爱和克丽淇的频繁助攻，任何一支队伍都很难防范。

人们普遍认为阿森纳的问题出在它软弱的防守上，我看未必。的确，华丽的足球必定要付出软弱的代价，阿森纳中场缺乏的是防守意识。赫莱布和罗西斯机往往在防守时站不住位置，导致了传说中的瞎跑和瞎抢。好在本赛季吉而波托的成熟，帮助阿森那解除了一部分这方面的危机。实际上阿森纳的后防线非常不错，拖累和桑德罗斯都是上赛季在坎贝尔缺席的情况下经住了英超和欧冠考验的，加拉斯的引入也增加板等的厚度。再加上，温格的进攻型足球理念一般是压制性的打法，而且拥有良好的控球率，防守的压力并不大。那么问题处在哪？问题出在阿森纳的进球率，除罗西司机以外，阿森那的中场几乎没有得分能力。如果把赫莱布放实况里的话，他的盘带能力应该是九十，他的射门能力应该是零。法布雷加斯也不用说，中门框率基本低于百分之二十。再加上本赛季亨利和范佩西的因伤缺阵，进球更捉襟见肘。巴普蒂斯塔连蒙带骗混进去几个，但他显然不是阿森纳的材料，温格把他扫地出门也是迟早的事情。阿德八月虽然是不错的，但总显得不像是个正当的前锋。阿森
纳想下赛季有所作为，必须提高把握机会的能力。

阿森纳近两个赛季接连送走了维埃拉和坎贝尔两个精神领袖也是成绩不好的重要原因。与他们相比，亨利和吉尔伯托显然缺乏了那种坚强和勇气。而这些气质也正是阿森纳疏于英超曼联，利物浦，切尔西的。法布雷加斯真的能顶替维埃拉么,目前看来在组织进攻上看是做到了，可是防守上却差之于千里之外。当然，年仅十九岁的他能挑起一家英超豪门的大梁已经是非常人所为了。但让一个发展中的少年承担这样的责任或许本身就很有争议性，相比之下的梅西和因涅斯塔就能够在大牌的肩膀下成长的更加自由自在。当然新旧更替是有一个过程的，要知道阿森纳的平均年龄只有二十三四，这样一支年轻球队无疑在不久的将来会大有作为。

法国人追求完美的个性在温格的身上体现的淋漓尽致，他温文尔雅，严谨细致，而且内心坚强，有点让我们联想到中国女排教练陈忠和。在功利足球当前的潮流下，他坚持了自己的理念，展现给世人流利畅快的进攻，精妙绝伦的配合，但也往往倒在龟缩防守，高举高打的英超莽汉面前。也许历史记录的仅仅是冠军，但充满个性和魅力的足球永远是被真正喜欢足球的人所记住。

点评八个字：
华而不实，前途无量

点评一下之切尔西

2007-05-12T22:59:00.000-05:00

五大联赛将见分晓，欧洲赛场硝烟殆尽。。。
这个赛季看了的点儿球，虽然不多，但也有些感想，有点牢骚。上来意淫一下，请大家取笑。

引进了舍瓦和巴拉客的切尔西比往年更为枯燥难看了。为难了穆里尼奥，不敢违抗阿布的指示，放弃自己习惯的四三三，改打四四二。也为难了在拜仁无拘无束的巴拉客，到这里不但有繁重的防守任务，也成了兰帕德的炮弹输送者。更为难了当年的独挡一面的核弹头，如今只能在德罗巴高大的阴影下钻来钻去。也许一个队伍里有多个核心并不是什么好事情，皇马早就已经在这个方面给大家上过一课了。可惜财大气粗的阿布偏要砸钱又有谁能拦得住呢？穆里尼奥确实难做，也见过他发点牢骚，可最后还是忍气吞声。他那股子在老特拉福德羞辱弗格森，在记者招待会辱骂温格的傲气这时候又跑哪去了呢？看来还是有点小人得志的意思吧。

也许说的有点过了，穆里尼奥的教练水准还是的确值得肯定的，在这样一个不能任其发挥的情况下，切尔西还是在各大赛事上拼到了最后。原因诸多，但是我想最重要的就是切尔西坚强的意志。回顾一下这个赛季，不管是阿森纳，曼联，巴萨，利物浦还是罗马都被大比分的干倒过。只有切尔西，在印象当中没有输过两个球以上，而且在僵持情况下，它往往能够施加强大的压力，最后拖垮对手。上一轮阿森纳对切尔西的比赛，最后在少一人的情况下，它能够追品比分充分显示了这一点。从特里，埃辛，马克莱莱，到德罗巴，一股必胜的意识贯穿了整个球队，对切尔西来说踢球就是玩命。当然，这种意识也是以穆里尼奥的足球理念为基本的。

虽然切尔西的球比较难看，没有华丽的技术，没有精妙的配合，但它绝对是本赛季中最整体而且最平衡的一支球队。有着强力的前锋，犀利的速度，紧凑的中场，坚强的后卫，切尔西象一个终始不休的机器，几乎没有破绽。每个队员时时刻刻清除自己的任务，各尽其责，这也是大概你几乎看不到穆里尼奥在场面指指点点，大喊大叫的原因。

但临近赛季终，切尔西的缺点已经爆露无疑，它几乎没有什么进攻的手段可言，大脚往前找德罗巴，再不然就是兰帕德的远射，埃辛单骑救主的例子也屡见不鲜。说道埃辛，必须大加赞赏，绝对是本赛季切尔西最宝贵的球员。吃苦耐劳，能攻能守，搁到哪个位置都都可以称得上世界级的。穆里尼奥也毫不客气的把他当头驴使，两个字，好用。马克来来和德罗巴的好处自然不用说了，三个字，都好用。可惜的是鲁本为了给舍瓦腾出位置，经常做的是板凳，穆里尼奥也只能在打不开局面的最后二十分钟，换上他来打自己顺心的四三三，而且屡试不爽。

赛季殆尽，除了足总杯，切尔西仅凭着一个足协杯的头衔恐怕难以交差吧。失去联赛，这跟切赫，特里，乔科尔的伤病是分不开的，但是哪一个征战欧洲战场的球队不面临这些困难呢，切尔西的板等已经很厚了。据说穆里尼奥还是继续会担任教练，而舍瓦和巴拉克也必须上场，那么这部机器能如何更和谐的运转，我们也必须拭目以待。但他永远是一部重型的机器，不可能成为轻舞的精灵。

点评八个字：

丑陋不堪，坚强无比

青青小馆

2007-05-10T21:25:00.000-05:00

青青小馆，堪萨斯城一家偏僻的中国餐馆，一直以来以正宗的牛肉面而出名。刚搬来的时候，不知道该去哪吃饭，才估狗到了这里。第一次去，有如到了传说中的龙门客栈。小店座落在一条泥沙混砸的乡间小路边。没有停车场，门口三辆车歪歪斜斜的停着，没什么风，挂的一支灯笼倒是被吹的转着圈摇摆。我小心翼翼的从贴满海报的玻璃门看进去，里面人客稀少，灯光昏暗，大有黑店的意思。但由于肚子太饿，在门口徘徊了两圈之后还是进去了。
里面，老板娘大妈正用纯正的河南英语吆喝着一位黑人大叔，那口音，大有当年圣路易豆腐西施的风范。等搞定后，大妈豪不客气的也冲着我彪起了英文，我赶紧澄清了自己的身份然后要了一份中文菜单。坐下来看菜单，才发现此处价钱不菲，于是只点了一碗牛肉面，一盘锅贴。小店虽破破烂烂，倒也还干干净净。没有空调，只有两把吊扇。四周挂了几幅仿古的山水画，但由于年代久远，加上油烟熏香，已经不堪入目。身后一个大玻璃缸里的水大概许久没换了，浑浊不堪，玻璃后面时不时漂过来几只，待要看清楚时又消失在污浊当中，我想大概是鱼吧。
老板娘矮矮的，胖胖的，眼睛咪咪的，加上脸颊上堆了不少肉，看起来总是笑嘻嘻的，很淳朴的形象。不一会摇摇摆摆的把锅贴和牛肉面端了上来，还是笑嘻嘻的。这时才想起问我要喝什么，我说水，接着我惊奇的看着她从自来水管里灌满了一杯，还没忘了加冰块。牛肉面是没的说，上好的清汤牛肉面，用的是上好的牛筋，而且煮的很烂，面也是手工撮的，十分近道。我沉浸在一个人的世界里，仿佛停止了时间，稀里哗啦的爽下了这碗面外加十二个锅贴，都忘了加我最爱的辣椒。
吃的好饱，回家的路上有点犯困，于是摇下窗户，让风一个劲儿的吹，我大声唱歌。

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2005-07-16T22:53:00.000-05:00

new blog, its da shit